This week marks the 20th week of my pregnancy with this little gal. The halfway point has really snuck up on me and heading towards the second half has made my anxiety/desperate need to nest intensify. I also find myself frequently comparing this pregnancy to my first and trying to recall little details, like “Did I feel this way with her?” or “Was this pain the same?” This pregnancy is both similar yet completely different than my first. The differences are likely uninteresting to anyone except me, but I am taking advantage of jotting these memories down so I don’t forget again. In case you are wondering, here is what I am feeling as I enter my fifth month of pregnancy!
Currently craving…
Yogurt with fruit, granola, and shredded coconut– which I have been eating every day for an afternoon snack. Also: fried chicken dipped in BBQ sauce with sides of mashed potatoes and buttermilk biscuits. I have yet to actually enjoy this meal nevertheless it has been consuming my thoughts for the past month!
Feeling…
Exhausted! I remember feeling so great and energetic throughout this period during my first pregnancy. In fact, it was the light at the end of the tunnel through my entire first trimester; I knew second trimester bliss was just around the corner! Yet this time around, I rarely feel rested and have extremely little motivation to do much of anything.
Food aversion…
Chicken (apparently not if it’s fried?) and salmon.
Excited about…
Decorating her room! Even though she’ll move into Waverley’s room and Waverley will take over the current guest room, I am really looking forward to decorating a new space for a new life. As a third child who lived in hand-me-downs and the like, I am extra cognizant about ensuring she feels like a unique individual. I am working on an inspiration board that I will show you next week!
Scared about…
The delivery. I know it’s too soon to worry about this, but I am already anxious about how it will happen. I never feared the delivery when I was pregnant with Waverley so this is new territory, yet I feel it is for good reason considering my delivery with her was so difficult! (Quick rundown: Induced at 41 weeks, 21 hours of labor, epidural didn’t take on left side of body, three vacuum attempts, emergency cesarean, post-op infection. Yikes!) I hope to try for a VBAC this time and pray it works out.
Could do without…
The worst pelvic pain of my life. It feels like my pelvis is splitting in half.
Grateful for…
An understanding husband! This time around we both know the drill and it is glorious to have him anticipate my needs the way he does.
The main difference…
Between this pregnancy and the last pregnancy, the main difference is leisure time. Even though I worked out of the home more throughout the last pregnancy, I had more time to relax by myself. When I got home from work, I’d crash. Yet now, I have a toddler to take care of. On the weekends, we’d sleep in and lounge in bed for hours but now we get up earlier to make breakfast.
First vs second pregnancy…
I feel more confident dressing the bump this time around. I am glad I am really showing now, rather than the questionable period when it was debatable if that was a baby bump or leftover holiday indulgences.
